After everything.. after trying my best to get her.. alam mo yung feeling na sobrang lapit mo na.. but then you have to stop.. :( tears are literally falling from my eye.. :( I have never loved a girl this much.. she is everything to me.. :( but sometimes.. we have to say goodbye :( coz of our personal issues.. :( It’s like you lost your will to live.. alam mo yun.. :( super ughh! Super Love ko na sya.. she’s everything to me.. she’s the first in a lot of things to me.. :( She’s my life to be honest.. just last night we we’re talking telling her that I am willing to do anything.. I am willing to talk to her parents and stuff like that.. :( I guess that won’t happen anymore.. :( 

We’re not growing younger.. time keeps on ticking.. we’re always in a rush to spend more time with each other.. always running out of time.. but still we keep on running in the race of time.. and if we fall it’s hard to catch up with things.. Constantly begging for time to slow down.. but it’ll never slow down.. that’s the reason we always try to treasure the smiles.. the laughter and the moments with anything or anyone special to us.. This is life.. Life is a Constant race against time..

So It’s been a while since the last time I posted some things here in Tumblr.. okay so.. basically now.. everything seems to be crashing down on me.. :)) DRAMA!.. nah I’m just playing… basically my life now is really boring.. I don’t know No inspiration(Person and Things).. I’m having a quarter life crisis! WTF! =)) ahaha! nahh but yeah.. it’s been kind of lonely.. I’ve been this guy who always obeys what he was ordered to do.. scared to get out of my comfort zone and yeah my parents.. it sucks actually.. I feel like.. i’m a prisoner.. If not by them by my health.. sometimes i just wanna give up and tell myself what the hell am I doing here!.. but yeah.. and it sucks being boring.. or idle.. coz basically when I’m bored.. that’s the time when I reminisce about everything.. how fucking lonely I am.. about my fucking mistakes in life.. or my biggest regrets in life.. but yeah.. wla lang! i’m just ranting.. coz I missed this.. :D

Have you ever had that feeling.. I don’t know how to describe it but it’s when you have this funny feeling in your tummy.. or like your heart stops beating whenever you see her.. or you constantly want to talk to her Phone or text or chat.. well.. I had that feeling not just once but a lot of times.. but now.. after the things that has happened to me.. oh how I long for that feeling.. It’s like I can’t feel that anymore.. but whyyy? D: I’m in no rush.. I just don’t want to end up the guy who loses all his feelings.. the guy who’s as numb as a rock.. I know what i did before was wrong.. but those wrong doings that you’ve done before.. doesn’t LEAVE A MARK on your forehead that you’re that guy.. i mean people make mistakes.. and people learn from their lessons.. wla lang.. felt like saying these things coz i’m practically lost.. I can’t understand myself.. :P haha 

Since many of my friends agreed with me with this one sa Facebook so I posted it here na rin sa Tumblr. No offense to anyone.. this is my opinion.. and I have talked with a lot of people about this topic.. and it’s not just me who thinks that this is true.. 

Ohh the church.. What have you done to our religion.. I’m a faithful man.. I believe in God.. I pray to him.. and Yes I thank him for everything that I have.. now here’s the thing the church is there toGUIDE you.. NOT TO CONTROL YOU! I don’t know why the church can really be a hypocrite.. I mean dude! LOOK AT YOURSELVES BEFORE YOU JUDGE US… Not everyone in the Church is a hypocrite.. I have lots of friends who are priests.. and they too are getting pissed off with the system in our religion.. WAKE UP PEOPLE! Like one time.. In my parish church they’re trying to make a new chapel a new house for the priest and whatsoever.. Okay.. nothing wrong with that.. but when you said that GIVING IS THE WAY TO HEAVEN. How pathetic is that.. I mean if people would give then they would give.. don’t scare them or whatsoever.. anyways moving on.. Have you heard the new issue about the church.. on How infertile people can’t marry.. I’m not sure if this is really true.. but yeah Pathetic dba? I mean it was even written in the bible that ABRAHAM was ordered by God to go to this place i forgot where.. and there he would meet Sarah (Sarai) which he would marry.. and when Abraham arrived he met Sarah he was shocked to find out Sarah was OLD and INFERTILE but yeah He married her! yes they would have a son but the thing is he married her even if she was infertile and it was the order of GOD! See what I did there? /:)

it is written in the bible. God perform miracles this is one of the things that I learned through my religion classes and here’s another thing.. why stop love? so you’re saying to the couple who’s infertile that you can’t marry coz you can’t reproduce so yeah bye! but the thing is.. without the Holy Matrimony they’d still commit a sin.. Which is? Yes you’ve guessed it PREMARITAL SEX. So yeah it’s somewhat saying to the infertile couple that they will go to hell coz you guys can never be together and you can’t do the things you do to express love for each other because the church wont allow it.. :))  FUNNY isn’t it.. No offense to the people who reads this.. I’m just sick of this issue.. This is my opinion and if i stated something wrong please just correct it.. Don’t hate the post. 

Like what my prof said Religion is different from Faith. 

Had a dream last night.. it was about my ex.. It was in a classroom.. then I was waiting for her to finish doing something related to the class.. then when she was done.. I tried to grab her and talk to her.. she was shouting at me.. telling me that “I don’t want you back! I don’t want you back!! You didn’t even try to do something to win me back!” but then I answered.. “You think I didn’t try to do anything?! i poured my heart just to prove to you How much you mean to me.. but when I saw you with your new guy I just had to let go.. coz I know you’re Happy Already..” then I woke up.. Funny thing is that.. When I woke up.. Suddenly the song Big Yellow Taxi was playing in my mind…  Specifically this Line:

Listen, late last night, I heard the screen door swing,                                                                        And a big yellow taxi took my girl away                                                                       Now don’t it always seem to go                                                                          That you don’t know what you got till it’s gone                                                      They paved paradise and put up a parking lot

 I know you don’t want me back.. I understand that.. I’ve accept the fact that you have a new guy.. but I just want you to know.. There’s no day that I didn’t think of you.. :) I love you so much that I’d let you go.. and not have any bad feelings about that.. but if you come back then maybe this is true.. but yeah that ain’t gonna happen.. :))) I just want you happy.. :) still now.. I’m still having a hard time.. adjusting.. coz.. Sanay akong kasama ka plagi.. :D hahaha! 

My girlfriend broke up with me.. :( though i know it’s my fault.. I got caught cheating… when she opened my Facebook acct. :( I’m sorry I know.. :( People make mistakes.. :( I’m so sorry.. :( I regret doing that I swear.. :( It’s 7:34 am.. :( I slept at around 4 am… I can’t sleep.. coz.. i’ve been crying all night.. :( and then when I woke up.. it was so hard for me to move.. :( I was saying to myself “ughhh! another morning I don’t think I can continue anymore.” :( super sad.. :( super depressed.. :( I can’t go idle.. coz I might literally kill myself.. this is the first time i’ve ever experienced this sadness… :( Putangina DI KO NA KAYA! :( I don’t want this anymore.. :( I need you! please.. she was the first and only girl i told to that “someday i’m gonna marry you!” or “Reserve that finger for me.. coz someday i’m gonna be the one to put a ring on that finger.” i don’t know if you see the weight of those words spoken by a guy.. Yeah sure.. I might tell that to my future girlfriend…. but take note.. she was the first girl I’ve ever told that to… that means she’s the girl i really loved.. na parang graaabbbbbbeeeee… even if i repeat that to a girl it’ll be like…. aaaahhh pssshhhhh… but to her it was different.. :( i’m hopng for another chance.. :( i need this.. I am still fucking inlove with Patricia Anne Tirona.. :( I swear i will change for her.. I PROMISE YOU THAT… :( please… God.. I’m praying to you to please answer my prayer.. :( please… I can’t take this anymore… :( I don’t want to lose the girl i’ve treasure soooo much! she means sooo much to me… :( please… :( I KNOW ITS MY FAULT… I’M SO SORRY! :( 

Better Together- By Jack Johnson

Got the minus one/ instrumental in Youtube.. =)))

This song is for my girlfriend.. coz.. we broke up just last month.. we had issues.. so when we broke up… this song kept on playing inside of my head.. coz it was clear to me.. that i still think that we’d be better together forever.. :D Cheesy Shit! =))) Anyways yeah.. So.. we gave it another shot.. and It’s working perfectly.. :D I love you so much Patricia Anne Tirona.. :D Thank you for changing for me.. :D